Tarby's Basement

I really want to go through with this fan-fiction-izing of Forever Broken

but something just occurred to me, something just sorta…i guess sunk in that i’ve never really properly processed in my mind:

If i do that, I’m gonna have to rewrite Cupcakes.

Idk, it’s weird, ‘cause i spend so little time focusing on the actual death of rainbow dash, and so much on the build up and aftermath, that If i do it in fanfic form, I’m gonna have to actually put detail that I intentionally left out of the song, or at the very least find a more clever way about it than just convenient omission.

I guess, after a year of having that fucking song under my belt and over my head, I sorta stopped associating it with the story that, despite my utter distaste of it, was used as a basis for the something broke, and subsequently the forever broken story line. I mean, I wrote something broke because I hated cupcakes, and frankly my opinion about it has gotten worse over the past few months - Something Broke, when it was first released, was a troll song; 20 minutes long, riddled with pointless time signature changes and dissonant chords/melodies, and about the most vile, disgusting, and poorly written gorefic I knew of at the time because people kept on joking about how I wrote long and dark songs. It was nothing more than a playful jump to an extreme merely to show that my stuff honestly wasn’t as bad as it could be. Next thing I know, the soundcloud link is on EQD, and people are literally starting fandom battles over it. I’m getting people telling me how much they love it, and others saying i should kill myself for even thinking about such a thing, and here I am thinking “…wow, that escalated quickly”.

A year later, I guess, in the end, the joke’s on me; I’ve got an entire plotline based around it, most of the people who are fans of my music learned of me through something broke, and I’m slotted to perform it in its entirety at Canterlot Gardens. I’d be ignorant and in denial to say that it was anything less than my most popular song, and, in the 12 months since i first put out that shitty-ass demo (‘cause let’s be honest, guys: i whipped it all up in a week, and even considering how inexperienced I was at the time with production the mixing was abysmal), I’ve managed to make the improvements on the orchestration that I had wanted to when I was writing it, and write out 2+ disks worth of plotline and material to be used in a story album that, admittedly, I’m fairly excited for.

That all being said, even when I was writing it, I sorta just took the general idea of the Cupcakes fanfiction, and made it my own; instead of a gore-fic, I had a psychological thriller. Instead of Pinkie just doing some sick, demented job, I have her target out rainbow dash. I made it, at least in my head, plausible, and tried to give logic and plot to a story devoid of either. But it sort of sank in tonight, while trying to give an outline for the story to help me organize my thoughts, that I’ve removed it from the original story far enough that I’ve basically been able to subconsciously deny that they’re one and the same, albeit mine a bit more in depth - pinkie kills rainbow dash in cold blood and makes her into fucking cupcakes. I mean, I’ve thought about it, and every time I’ve gotten to that point in my previous outlines, I’ve just put “Cupcakes” and skipped to the next line, and in my old lyrics I practically avoided the actual topic of wounding her save for 4 lines, and the word “die” screamed over the course of 15 and a half measures.

Idk, it’s a bit of a reality check, and I’m just rambling, because though I plan on going through with this, I can’t say I thought that, a year ago when I wrote it, I’d be so widely known for it, and that I’d be preparing to recreate a story that’s a major contender for my least favorite fanfic I’ve ever read. It’s just a bit of an “oh shit o.o” moment, I suppose.

Anyway, yeah. Might be looking for help organizing this shit, so if you actually read through this and you’ve gotten to this point and feel you can be of assistance (either for prereading or what have you), send me an ask or message me on skype.

Sorry for the wall of text, too.